ON the board I converse on, somebody started a suicide topic, and I found this reply to be very right on:

"I felt very similar to what you describe for a great deal of my young life (teens through twenties). For whatever it's worth, the longer you live, the more you realize that the present moment really is just a moment. No matter how strongly you may feel that, "this is all there is, has been, or could be", it isn't true. We change over the course of our lives, and the world changes around us. I'm 40, and I'm still not the painter I'd like to be. Maybe I never will be. But I've had an interesting and varied life, and all those early worries about eternal loser-doom proved baseless."

Seriously though, how easy is it to get caught up in the way your feeling at this certain point in time? So you feel like your life is going nowhere. So someone isn't returning your feelings. SO it doesn't feel like God's out there. That doesn't mean that it's going to be that way forever. Things change; we change. And man, life is too short to spend it worrying about what could be. Live for what you've got. Live for what's coming. Live for what God has planned.

I mean, with Him in control, no matter what our present situation is, things have got to get better eventually. Right?